Chapter 3 of 17
A Poorly Fastened Button
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Pale morning light, bruised violet and rose through the high arched windows, did little to flatter Lord Kaelen’s countenance. His face, puffy from an evening’s indiscretion, bore the tell-tale sheen of rich wine and too little sleep. A sigh escaped Elian’s lips, barely audible.
"For your… continued good health, my lord," Elian murmured, placing a chilled vial of Sunpetal Revitalizer onto the polished ebony desk. The liquid inside, a vibrant emerald, promised to soothe the most obstinate of noble hangovers. Kaelen never failed to receive one on mornings such as these. Elian found a grim amusement in the ritual, a testament to Kaelen’s predictable excesses and the striking swiftness with which his handsome face would betray them.
Kaelen merely grunted, waving a languid hand. "See to my appointments, Vance. The First Councilor’s luncheon, particularly." His voice was a silken rasp, a predator’s growl softened by indulgence.
"As always, my lord." Elian’s tone was carefully neutral, a practiced mask. The bitter tang of unspoken frustration pricked at him. Kaelen’s illicit affairs, Elian’s responsibility to cover them, grated against his sense of propriety, yet the proximity to the lord, however tainted, remained an intoxicating poison.
Turning towards his own modest writing alcove, Elian’s gaze snagged on the polished surface of the adjacent desk. A large, unfurled scroll, bearing the Emperor’s seal, lay open. It was Valerius Thorne’s place. A familiar tightening seized Elian’s chest, a coil of resentment that unfurled with sickening grace.
Valerius, Elian noted, was already present, slumped in his chair, head resting on one hand, apparently deep in slumber. How effortlessly Valerius carried himself, even in feigned repose. Elian, though slender, felt a familiar inadequacy beside Kaelen’s imposing frame, and Valerius’s languid grace only underscored his own reserved stiffness. He often cursed his own unremarkable stature, finding solace only in the proximity to Kaelen's shadow.
Elian swallowed the burning sensation of envy. He cleared his throat softly. "Lord Valerius appears to have an early start today."
A rustle of parchment. The scroll shifted, revealing Valerius Thorne’s half-lidded eyes. His gaze, keen and intelligent despite the sleepy veneer, swept over Elian and then Kaelen. A slow, elegant stretch followed, a yawn that stretched his mouth wide.
"A rather… persistent nocturne," Valerius drawled, his voice a low hum, "I told myself I’d just peruse a few more treaties, and, well."
Kaelen, hearing the exchange, let out a short, mirthless laugh. "Still pretending at scholarship, Thorne? You look more like a man who’s been wrestling with a tavern wench."
"Perhaps I’m simply more adept at concealing my conquests, Kaelen," Valerius retorted, his eyes glinting with amusement. "Unlike some."
"Spoken like a true serpent," Kaelen chuckled, a genuinely amused sound that grated on Elian. He watched them, a knot forming in his stomach. The casual camaraderie between them, born of shared privilege and ambition, was a barrier Elian could never breach. He turned his attention back to Kaelen, forcing a placid expression. The Grand Salon, usually bustling with minor nobles and petitioners by this hour, was still quiet. Soon, however, the day would begin, bringing with it the familiar dance of courtly intrigue.
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Suddenly, a shift in the ambient murmurs. A ripple of whispers, hushed and sharp, spread through the approaching courtiers. Elian’s gaze followed theirs.
Seraphin, from the minor House of Ashwood, shuffled into the Salon. His frame seemed to shrink with every hesitant step, his eyes downcast, hidden beneath a curtain of unkempt dark hair. He carried a battered leather satchel, a stark contrast to the silken pouches and polished briefcases of other scholars. He moved towards a small, almost forgotten desk in a far corner, placed his satchel down, and promptly hunched over it. His thin shoulders trembled.
"Speak of the lesser house," a passing scribe muttered, barely loud enough to be heard. "Still clinging to court, even after… that."
Kaelen’s eyes, which had been fixed on Elian for a moment, snapped to Seraphin. A cruel smile touched Kaelen’s lips, almost imperceptible. Elian felt a chill. Kaelen’s sensitivity, his specific, possessive cruelty towards Seraphin, was a discordant note that resonated deep within Elian. It was not the casual disdain Kaelen held for others, but something more deliberate, more personal.
Snatching the Imperial dispatch scroll that had been lying open on Valerius’s desk—Valerius having since retrieved it—Kaelen balled it up in one hand. With a quick, precise flick of his wrist, he hurled it. The scroll struck Seraphin’s head with a soft thud. Seraphin jolted, his head rising slightly before slumping back onto the desk.
"Still making such an unseemly spectacle, Seraphin?" Kaelen’s voice, though low, carried through the quiet salon. "Do try to contain your… distress."
Seraphin buried his face deeper into his arms, doing exactly as Kaelen commanded. Kaelen watched him, a flicker of cold amusement in his eyes, before kicking his own desk leg with a sharp crack.
"Did I not ask for an answer?" Kaelen demanded, rising abruptly. His voice was no longer soft.
Seraphin, still hunched, stammered a barely audible response. "Y-yes, my lord."
"Lift your head. Look at me. Speak with the respect due to your betters."
Elian’s jaw tightened. Kaelen’s demands were preposterous, designed solely to humiliate. A bitter laugh caught in Elian’s throat.
Kaelen advanced on Seraphin. With each measured step Kaelen took, an unpleasant heat spread through Elian’s veins, a familiar, unsettling thrum. The distance between Kaelen and Seraphin dwindled. Just that alone made Elian feel a visceral disquiet, as if he were losing purchase on his carefully constructed emotional barriers.
This was not the gnawing jealousy Elian felt when Kaelen engaged with Valerius Thorne. No, this was something else, something darker, more insidious. He instinctively knew it. A raw, unvarnished instinct resided within him, mirroring Kaelen’s own shadowed depths. That was why Kaelen’s easy rapport with Valerius eventually became a dull ache, tolerable in its familiarity. But Kaelen’s interactions with Seraphin stirred something primal, something dangerous. Elian’s hands began to tremble, and he clasped them tightly behind his back, pressing his nails into his palms to hide the tremor.
Kaelen kicked Seraphin’s desk hard. The lacquered wood shrieked, threatening to topple. Seraphin startled upright, his eyes wide with fear, voice unsteady.
"M-my apologies."
Kaelen simply stood there, looking down at Seraphin’s pale, tear-streaked face. Seraphin’s eyes glistened, on the verge of spilling over. Yet, in that moment, Elian felt a peculiar affinity, a shared vulnerability, as if he too might shatter.
Kaelen rarely sent Seraphin on menial tasks, but his gaze, sharp and predatory, never left the young man. If Seraphin left for the privy during a break in court proceedings, Kaelen’s eyes would track his retreating figure, even as he conversed with Elian or Valerius. Elian knew because he never stopped watching Kaelen.
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To be truthful, Elian's initial impression of Seraphin had been unremarkable. His complexion, though pale, was unblemished, and his youthful features held a quiet pleasantness. When Seraphin smiled, it seemed genuinely warm, and even his neutral expression carried an unassuming brightness.
Before Kaelen’s torment began, few nobles paid Seraphin much mind, let alone disliked him. He seemed a young man raised in gentle quietude, perhaps more accustomed to the seclusion of libraries than the clamor of court. While not overly gregarious, preferring his own company, there was no trace of worry or discomfort in his demeanor. Most considered Seraphin a decent, if unremarkable, sort. He never flaunted his modest lineage, earning him quiet approval. Humble, quiet, studious, and inexplicably pleasant to be near—that was Seraphin.
But Elian had not particularly cared for him from the start. He harbored no hatred, merely an absence of interest. To say Seraphin hadn’t even registered on Elian’s internal ledger of courtly worth would be more accurate. Yet, whenever conversations with Kaelen or Valerius drifted to the younger scholars, and Seraphin’s name arose, Elian would find himself offering a casual, manufactured assessment: "Ah, Seraphin? He seems… innocuous enough. Competent."
Kaelen, much like Elian, hadn’t initially paid Seraphin any particular notice. Kaelen was rarely concerned with the minor details of courtly affairs, especially those beneath his station. After Seraphin’s family had been granted a minor residency at court last season, he and Kaelen hadn’t exchanged a single direct word until only a moon ago. That was how things had been.
But then, one day, everything shifted. A small, sharp deviation in the meticulously ordered flow of courtly life. It happened just after the midday meal. Looking back, Elian knew no other regret had ever gnawed at him with such persistent ferocity.
Seraphin, as was his custom, had retreated to a secluded corner of the Imperial archives during the mid-afternoon recess, engrossed in a rare codex. He was the kind of person who lost himself completely in ancient texts. Elian, on the other hand, had a tendency to cultivate an overly friendly demeanor towards those with unblemished reputations, especially when it served to subtly elevate his own.
That was why, when Elian happened upon Seraphin, he struck up a conversation about the ancient tome. Elian wasn’t truly an indiscriminate reader of such esoteric texts himself; intellectual vanity was more his style.
"You find such weighty histories compelling, do you not?" Elian began, adopting a tone of scholarly camaraderie.
"Oh! Indeed, my lord. They are… an escape, in their own way." Seraphin had looked up, startled, his spectacles askew on his nose. At the time, Seraphin and Elian were still distant acquaintances. Perhaps that made the approach feel less intrusive.
"Have you delved far into its pages?"
"I am nearing its conclusion, my lord."
"Then I urge you to cease," Elian said, with a dismissive wave of his hand. "The ending will only disappoint. It is one of those tomes whose final chapters betray its initial promise."
"You have perused it before?" Seraphin asked, his voice tinged with surprise.
"Ages ago, yes." To satisfy his intellectual vanity, Elian always sought out critical analyses and obscure commentaries on the texts that passed through court, ensuring he possessed a ready, informed opinion for future exchanges. Drawing upon those distant memories, he offered a critique—not a genuine one, merely enough to sound discerning—and Seraphin had smiled, a flash of genuine pleasure that caught Elian off guard.
"You are the first, my lord, I have met who has read this particular volume, besides myself."
"Is that so?" Elian feigned casual surprise.
"Yes. But I shall still complete it. Discovering why the finale unravels as it does, understanding the author’s failing… that is part of the allure."
"Well, certainly. Interpretations diverge."
"To hear you say so only heightens my anticipation."
That guileless smile still lingered in Elian’s memory, an uncomfortable shard. Was it an instinctive unease he had felt even then, a premonition of the entangled paths ahead? After that day, Seraphin began to seek out Elian more frequently. Though Elian found it somewhat bothersome, often silently wondering, *Why me?*, he never outright rejected the young man. Seraphin, with his quiet reputation for diligence, was not the worst person to keep within one’s peripheral influence.
After all, beyond Imperial edicts and courtly correspondences, such ancient histories were practically forbidden territory for most young nobles, who preferred the flash of the dueling blade or the whisper of a favored mistress. For Seraphin, Elian was likely the sole individual at court who might genuinely engage in such discourse.
That particular day was one of those routine encounters, but it also happened to be one of the most ill-fated days in a series of them. Yet, that encounter, in itself, was merely a prelude. The true unraveling, the poorly-fastened first button, was set in motion elsewhere, by another.
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The true blame, Elian often reflected, lay with Valerius Thorne. Even now, he could not fathom why he had acted with such careless presumption. Why he, a man who meticulously avoided meddling in others’ affairs, had chosen to insert himself. Why Valerius, of all people, had left a sensitive Imperial decryption cipher scroll lying open on his desk for any passing eye to glimpse.
Elian, a man who guarded his own scholarly discoveries with zealous care, naturally assumed Valerius would desire similar discretion. So, Elian had reached out, flipping the parchment over to conceal its contents. That was when he saw it: a partially completed code, and a notation indicating an unexpectedly high degree of progress. A subtle signature, a particular flair in the penmanship that spoke of a mind far sharper than Elian had been led to believe.
Elian blinked, checking again. The intricate symbols, the speed of its decipherment—it was indeed remarkable. Considering the prevailing courtly gossip about Valerius's purported indolence, it was a striking revelation.
It was the first time one of Elian’s carefully constructed preconceptions had shattered. A small shock to realize Valerius was not the mere dissolute playboy Elian had judged him to be, but a man of considerable, if understated, intellect. Naturally, that made Elian think of Kaelen’s own academic record. Now, Kaelen was truly the unredeemable one, a noble who would mark every question on a quarterly Imperial survey with the same careless flourish and sleep through the rest, never once achieving anything beyond the bare minimum.
Perhaps that was why Elian felt such a peculiar mix of emotions—like he had unearthed a glimmer of true gold amidst common ore. A man he had once dismissed as merely a rival in Kaelen’s affections now revealed himself to be more substantial, more worthy of respect, than the very lord Elian secretly adored. That strange, unsettling realization must have thrown Elian off his careful balance, because he did something he normally never would have.
It was nothing grand. He simply picked up a nearby quill, dipped it in ink, and scribbled a brief, almost impulsive note at the top of Valerius’s partially deciphered scroll.
"Focus on the ancient scripts. Your grasp of the old dialects is surprisingly keen. The House of Lyra’s cipher is a particularly rewarding challenge. Keep at it. —E. Vance.
P.S. My apologies for observing your progress without permission. I merely sought to conceal the document and inadvertently gleaned a portion of its contents."
The sheer arrogance of evaluating a peer’s work and offering unsolicited advice made Elian feel a blush rise to his cheeks, so he rambled an apology, a clumsy attempt to justify his intrusion.
He could not articulate why he had even written it in the first place. At the time, he must have been utterly disoriented. Looking back, it was unequivocally the first mistake in what would become a series of agonizing entanglements. Every mess, he now knew, began with a poorly fastened first button. If he hadn’t written that note, perhaps Kaelen's predatory gaze might never have settled upon Seraphin, transforming benign indifference into calculated cruelty.