Chapter 3 of 3

Chapter 2: The Breath of the Unborn

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Valerian lay still in the cold crib, letting the pain recede like a tide pulling back from a broken shore. The damaged meridian near his heart throbbed with each tiny heartbeat—a reminder, a lesson written in blood. He accepted it without resentment. Pain was the truest teacher he had ever known. *If I cannot force the gates open, then I will not force them. But there is a difference between forcing cultivation and nurturing the soil before the seed is planted.* He turned his mind toward something far more subtle—something he had dismissed in his previous life as beneath him, a technique so basic that even the lowest body-refining sects considered it elementary. Breath control. Not qi circulation. Not meridian expansion. Simply... breathing with intent. *The Passive Natal Refinement Method. I developed it during my third millennium, when I was researching the origins of mortal body cultivation. The theory was simple: natal qi responds to rhythm. Every living creature refines a microscopic amount of ambient energy through the natural act of breathing—an amount so small it takes decades to produce any measurable effect. But if the rhythm is controlled, if the breath follows a specific pattern that aligns with the body's natural growth cycle, the efficiency increases. Not dramatically. Not miraculously. But consistently.* *No one in this era has discovered this. No one will for another four hundred years.* Valerian adjusted his breathing. Slowly. Carefully. A longer inhale—four heartbeats. A pause—two heartbeats. A controlled exhale—six heartbeats. The pattern was deceptively simple, but the timing had to be exact. Too fast, and the natal qi would scatter uselessly. Too slow, and the body would simply fall into normal sleep rhythms without any refinement occurring. There was no surge of power. No warmth flooding his channels. No dramatic transformation. There was only the faintest—the absolute faintest—sensation of his natal qi moving in a slightly more ordered pattern through his flesh. Like a stream finding a marginally smoother path through stone. Imperceptible to any outside observer. Meaningless in the short term. But Valerian understood compounding growth better than any being alive. *One day of this means nothing. One week means nothing. One month—still nothing visible. But one year? Two years? Five years of constant, passive refinement while my body grows naturally? By the time other children in this clan begin their first day of cultivation training, my flesh will already be denser, my meridians slightly wider, my natal qi reserves fractionally larger than they should be. Not enough to draw attention. Not enough to seem unnatural. Just enough to ensure that when I finally do begin true cultivation, this body will be ready to bear what I intend to put it through.* The blood on his lip dried in the cold air. His damaged meridian continued its slow, painful healing. Around him, the other infants in the outer nursery wheezed and struggled against the mountain chill that seeped through thin stone walls. Valerian breathed. In. Hold. Out. In. Hold. Out. Patient as stone. Relentless as time itself. *Let Caelan have their attention. Let him grow under the weight of expectation and praise. I have walked that road before—the road of the prodigy, the chosen, the watched. It leads only to chains disguised as crowns.* *This time, I choose the dark. I choose the silence. I choose the slow, invisible path that no one guards because no one believes there is anything worth protecting.* *Let them look toward the heavens. Let them chase glory, fame, and power beneath the eyes of the world.* *I will remain unseen.* *I will grow where no one watches, sharpen myself where no one cares, and when they finally realize what has been born in the shadows...* *It will already be too late.* Valerian's eyes drifted open—slowly, deliberately—and settled on the shapes around him. Three other cribs. Three other infants. Their breathing was labored, uneven, punctuated by wet coughs and the occasional thin wail that no one came to answer. *Pathetic creatures.* The thought arose naturally, instinctively—the reflex of a being who had once looked down upon Sovereigns as insects. But then, like a blade catching light at the wrong angle, something sharper cut through the contempt. Not compassion. Never compassion. Something colder. More practical. *No. Not pathetic. Irrelevant—for now. But nothing is truly irrelevant to one who understands utility.* He studied them with eyes that should not have been capable of focus at this age. The infant two cribs to his left breathed with a faint wheeze—lung deficiency, likely born premature. She would not survive the month. The one directly beside him was larger, healthier, but restless—thrashing in his blanket as though fighting some unseen enemy. Decent constitution. Might live. The third was silent and still, breathing so shallowly that Valerian could barely detect movement. *In my previous life, I would not have spared them a thought. Resources spent on the weak were resources wasted. That philosophy carried me to the peak—and it also ensured that when the world united against me, I stood alone. No allies. No pawns. No one whose loyalty I had cultivated early enough to matter.* *That was not mercy's failure. That was strategy's failure.* *I will not repeat it.* He filed the observation away—a cold notation in the vast library of his reborn mind. These infants were nothing now. Less than nothing. But the Evernight Clan's outer nursery was where the forgotten were placed, and forgotten children who somehow survived grew into desperate adults. Desperate adults were the easiest to mold. *Not today. Not for years. But I will remember who lay beside me in the dark when no one else cared whether we lived or died.* He closed his eyes and returned to his breathing pattern. In. Hold. Out. The natal qi shifted—imperceptibly, impossibly slowly—toward order. The contempt did not leave him. It never would. But behind it now sat something his previous self had never possessed: the patience to see value in what others discarded. Even the Demonic God could learn from death. The outer nursery grew colder as night deepened over the Evernight Clan's mountain. No servants came to check the temperature. No formations hummed with protective warmth. The clan's philosophy was etched into the very architecture—survive or be forgotten. The stone walls sweated frost, and the thin blankets provided to these discarded children were barely sufficient to keep blood flowing. Valerian maintained his breathing rhythm without interruption, but his mind—that vast, ancient thing coiled behind infant eyes—continued its assessment with the dispassionate precision of a general surveying a battlefield. *Assets in waiting. Yes. But assets require maintenance to retain value. Dead tools serve no purpose.* He watched the infant girl two cribs over—the one with the lung deficiency. Her breathing grew thinner with each passing hour. A wet rattle had settled deep in her chest, and her small body trembled not from cold alone, but from the slow failure of organs too undeveloped to sustain themselves in this environment. She would be dead before dawn. Valerian felt nothing at this observation. It was simply a data point—a resource that would expire before it could be cultivated. *Discard. Unavoidable loss.* The larger boy beside him, however—the one who thrashed and fought even in sleep—his breathing was strong. Angry, almost. His tiny fists clenched and unclenched against his blanket as though he refused to accept the cold passively. There was something there. Not talent, necessarily. Not at this stage. But *stubbornness*. The raw, animal refusal to submit. *That one might live. And if he lives through this nursery, he will carry the memory of abandonment like a scar. Scars breed hunger. Hunger breeds loyalty—when properly directed toward the hand that finally offers something.* Valerian closed his eyes again, dismissing the room from his awareness. There was nothing to be done now. His body was days old, incapable of action beyond breathing and existing. But the mind never rested. The mind was always planting seeds—even in soil too frozen to show growth. *Three years before I can move freely. Six before I can cultivate. In that time, I will watch. I will learn every face, every hierarchy, every crack in this clan's structure. And when I finally rise from this crib, from this room, from this position they have assigned me—I will already know exactly where to place my fingers to make the entire structure tremble.* In. Hold. Out. The night passed. The girl with the lung deficiency fell silent before morning. No one came to collect the body until midday. Valerian did not waste a single breath on the dead. The boy thrashed again in his sleep—a violent, full-body spasm that rocked his crib against the stone floor. His face was red, contorted, his tiny mouth open in a silent snarl that seemed almost too deliberate for an infant barely a week old. The cold bit into him the same as it bit into Valerian, the same as it had bitten into the girl whose body now lay still and cooling two cribs away. But where the cold had consumed her, this boy seemed to rage against it—as though the temperature were a personal insult he refused to forgive. Valerian watched through half-lidded eyes, his breathing pattern never faltering. *No name. No family marker on his crib. An orphan, then—or a bastard child deemed unworthy of acknowledgment. The Evernight Clan discards its unwanted here like refuse thrown into a pit, expecting nature to do the culling they consider beneath their dignity. But nature is not always efficient. Sometimes the refuse survives. Sometimes it grows teeth.* The boy's fist found the edge of his blanket and gripped it—hard, with a strength that seemed disproportionate to his size. His breathing steadied, not through any technique or awareness, but through sheer, brute-force will. The body simply refused to fail because the mind inside it, primitive and unformed as it was, would not permit failure. *Good. Very good.* Valerian committed the crib's position to memory. Third from the left wall. Closest to the door. The boy with no name who fought the cold like a personal enemy. *You do not know it yet, nameless thing. You will not know it for years. But I have already chosen you. Not out of kindness—I possess none. Not out of pity—that emotion died in me centuries before my first death. I choose you because your stubbornness is a raw material, and I am the only craftsman in this world who knows exactly how to forge it into something useful.* *Grow strong in your anger. Let the clan's neglect feed that fire in your chest. Let it become the only thing you know—the fury of being abandoned, the hunger of being deemed worthless. And when you are old enough to understand language, old enough to want, old enough to need someone to follow...* *I will be there. With exactly the right words. At exactly the right moment.* *That is not manipulation. That is cultivation of a different kind.* In. Hold. Out. The night stretched on. The dead girl remained uncollected. The nameless boy fought his invisible war against the cold. And Valerian breathed—patient, methodical, relentless—laying the groundwork for a dominion that would take decades to build and an eternity to tear down. One breath at a time. ****** Weeks passed. The outer nursery's population shifted like sand beneath a tide. The dead girl was removed on the third day—carried out by a servant who did not bother to learn her name before disposing of the body. The third infant, the silent one who breathed so shallowly, lasted eleven days before his heart simply stopped in the night. No ceremony. No acknowledgment. Just an empty crib by morning and a faint stain on thin cloth that no one bothered to wash before the next unwanted child was placed there. Only two remained. Valerian, and the boy who raged. *Natural selection. The Evernight Clan calls it philosophy, but it is simply negligence dressed in doctrine. They lose potential resources through laziness and call it strength. Inefficient. Wasteful. When I controlled territories in my previous life, even the weakest servant was assigned purpose. Nothing was discarded without first extracting every possible use.* *But their inefficiency is my opportunity.* Valerian's breathing technique continued without pause—waking, sleeping, every moment of every hour. The results were invisible. Immeasurable by any conventional standard. But he could feel it in the way his natal qi moved: fractionally smoother, like a river whose bed had been worn just slightly deeper by the constant passage of water. His damaged meridian had healed—not fully, a faint scar of spiritual tissue remained as permanent reminder of his impatience—but enough. The pain was gone. Only the lesson stayed. And through it all, he watched the boy. The nameless infant had developed a pattern. Every night, when the temperature dropped to its lowest, his body would seize and thrash—and every morning, he emerged from that struggle slightly more adapted. His skin, once red and raw from the cold, had begun to take on a faintly bluish undertone that Valerian recognized immediately. The Evernight bloodline. Faint, diluted—likely from a branch member's indiscretion with a servant—but present. The cold was not merely failing to kill him. It was activating something dormant in his blood. Slowly. Crudely. Without guidance or understanding. *He carries Evernight blood. Thin enough that whoever sired him deemed it beneath acknowledgment, but present nonetheless. The cold exposure is triggering a primitive form of bloodline awakening—uncontrolled, dangerous, but real. If left entirely unguided, it will either temper his body into something remarkable or burn him out before his fifth year. The odds favor destruction.* *Unless someone intervenes. At precisely the right time. With precisely the right knowledge.* Valerian closed his eyes, a ghost of something crossing his infant features—too subtle for any observer to name, too cold to be called a smile. *Your fury is your own now, nameless boy. Cherish it. Feed it. Let it become the very core of who you believe yourself to be. Because when I finally speak to you—when I finally offer you direction, purpose, a reason for all that suffering—you will not question it. You will not resist. You will simply... follow. Gratefully. Desperately. Completely.* *That is how you build a tool that never breaks. You do not forge it with force. You let the world do the breaking, and then you arrive with the glue.* *Patience.* In. Hold. Out. The mountain wind howled beyond the walls, and two infants endured the night—one burning with unconscious defiance, the other calculating with the cold.

End of Chapter 3